that she is "like, so gay," the 26-year-old actress didn't mean to diminish the love they shared.
"I didn't talk about my first relationships that went public because I wanted things that are mine to be mine," she tells .
"I would never talk about any of my relationships before, but once I started dating girls it seemed like there was an opportunity to represent something really positive," the Though she didn't hide her affections for Cargile in public, Stewart shied away from discussing their coupling for some time.
It's understandable, given that she suffered from "debilitating physical anxiety" during her teens and early 20s.
franchise took a flying leap into the vampire-less pages of real life and down a deep, complicated spiral, Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinsonhave finally shaken the ghosts of their relationship's past.
The one-time co-stars—whose three-year courtship came to a screeching halt in 2012 amid a Stewart-driven cheating scandal— found a unique comfort in attempting to navigate the often debilitating highs and lows that accompanied their sudden skyrocket to super-stardom together.
co-star, Robert Pattinson, she's altered her outlook when it comes to talking about her love life.
"If it didn't seem like a relevant topic, like something that needed help, I would have kept my life private forever.
It would be silly to say I don’t care what people think of my work and who I am, but stuff is polarizing, period.” Further recalling what it was like when she became an overnight A-lister thanks to her role as Bella Swan in the book-turned-movies, Stewart adds, "I used to try too hard, because I was nervous. I’ve just grown out of it." WATCH: Kristen Stewart on Where Robert Pattinson Romance Went Wrong -- 'Our Relationship Was Made Into a Product' In an exclusive interview with ET in October, Stewart also opened up about how she's come to deal with being in the public eye.
"I think it takes a minute to sort of acclimate to communicating with so many people at one time, with like, 'the masses,' you know," she shared.
Prior to their casting, the young actors were relatively unknown and at the time of their split a source told E!
News, Stewart was "the only person who [Pattinson] can talk to about [fame], and he feels like they are both on the same level and they understand one another."Kristen was equally as enamored with Robert, telling But after the glimmer of the wildly popular book-to-film franchise dimmed and the reality of maintaining a picture perfect relationship in the public eye began to set in, Robsten (as they were so affectionately dubbed) just couldn't keep up.